Wednesday, November 26, 2008

One Step Forward, Two Steps Back...

How weak the human heart can be.....

Ok.
So apparently I'm not as ok as I thought after my breakup.

Good:
1) Stopped my excessive boozing,
2) Started going back to the gym,
3) Trying to start dating again, and
4) Generally keeping busy.

Bad:
1) I am still not even close to actually feeling happy again.

It's terrible.
I am trying so hard to tell myself : "It's ok. Sadness/ Happiness is a choice. You can choose!"... but all that happens is that I end up:
a) best case scenario: numb, when successful, or
b) when I fail: still feeling sad.


I know this a pointless emo rant (which is far, far, faaaar from being a food review) but I just needed to let it out. Oh, and you know how sometimes you hear a song on the radio and think : "OMG. That's exactly how I feel?". Yeah, I found it:


Bloody hell.
*sigh*

J

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7 comments:

jemima said...

It will pass..

Trust me. *hugs*

J said...

to jemima:
Thanks... *hugs back*
But *sigh* I just wish it were better now - not tomorrow, or next month, or next year.

millfross said...

I so..... feel you..
Hi-5. Im sure if you pull through this.. i will to eventually. So yeah.. know that u're not alone feeling it. :D

J said...

to milfross:
Awww... :) thanks.
(Misery loves company, eh? Haha)

I hope you feel better really really soon too. I guess part of the healing is the pain you feel after... *sigh* (sucks though!)

Lyn said...

Hey babes...

how are you? Haven't been writing in my journal either but you'll survive this phase! Trust me...you have me to say whatever you want...

jOO yEE! said...

you can have me :P lol

take care~~~

J said...

to Lyn:
Thanks babe... *hugs*

to jOO yEE!:
Erm... thanks (?)...
*lol*

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