Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Melancholic

It's such a nice sunny day....
.... but I'm feeling down so it's time for a dose of James Morrison!:
(Original Music Videos)
(Home Made Video but Good Audio)

There.
I hope you enjoyed a serving of melancholy on this beautiful Wednesday morning.

Me? I can't believe it's the middle of the week so quickly (again).

There just seems to be so much to do and so little time.
Sometimes I really feel like the White Rabbit from Alice in Wonderland.... zipping here and there, looking at my watch and gasping "Oh no... I'm late, I'm late!".

Of course, it really doesn't help to have a mini choir group made up of my parents and P in the background who constantly chime: "You work too much! Talk to your boss! Get a raise - you don't earn enough to justify your work hours!".
(These are the same 3 people who on other days, tell me how much they will be proud of me if I'm a successful career woman and can take care of myself financially)

*sigh*
The thing is that I have talked to him.
... but I really don't think anything's going to change anytime soon.

"Yes, yes... your performance is very good. I'm very happy... etc etc."
Then, in the end, it turns out that my increment is only 5%.
(Please don't say that it sounds like a lot - my base pay is very low so it comes up to very little... and btw, inflation this year is about 3%, so that means I've only just caught up and essentially gotten a 2% increment)

And when I ask him for more, he said he will try to push HR for it....
... but then he left my formal letter in his in-tray for about a week until I gave up and just took it back.

I love my manager, I love my job...
... but some days are hard.

Sorry.
Don't mind me.
(This may all sound a little pathetic/ depressing)
:)
It just feels better to let it all out....
(Hope you don't mind listening to me whinge)


Hugs,
J

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7 comments:

Jemima said...

Your whinge is nothing..

Honestly, I've heard worst both in the blogosphere & in reality.

Thanks for sharing the music.
I needed them too.. especially today..

sneexe said...

*HUGS*

... keep your chin up. It's not so bad :)

Look on the bright side and try to count 3 things to be thankful for... it usually helps lift the mood at least a bit.

*HUGGS*

MeiyeN said...

awww.... don't be so upset! give you a big big HUG yah....

Wuching said...

time to find a new job..then baru dia tahu!

J said...

to jemima:
Well, this is the slightly condensed and censored version...
(I don't want to do the whole verbal diarrhea thing and just post up 16 paragraphs with all nitty gritty details....)
:)
Anyway, glad that you like the songs.
(And I hope you're feeling ok)

to sneexe:
*HUGS*
Awww... thanks.
And here goes - I am thankful for:
1)My loved ones (parents, P and friends
2)A roof over my head (although it's not really mine cos I'm still leaching off my parents)
3)Enough food to eat.
:)

to meiyen:
*HUGS back*
Thanks!
I'm feeling better already...

to wuching:
Haha.
I wish I could inspire that kind of fear but the low increment is making me think that maybe I'm not adding that much value... maybe I'm highly replaceable.
:(

"Joe" who is constantly craving said...

hey..till the day you actually throw your resignation letter..the pay wont go up..lets put it tat way..but thats life..its sad..

J said...

to "joe" who is constantly craving:
Well,... I was hoping that my company will be different - I'm still hoping that they will prove me wrong.
(Although you could say that it's wishful thinking)

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